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ahhh frust. frust.

FRUSTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTrated.

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K.Will ft. Outsider - Hypnosis Eng Sub

Hangul

rap> 돌아와 달라는 말로는 꽤나 부족한걸 알아
떠나란 한마디 조차 내게는 짐이 될 것 같아
곁에 너 없는 외로운 이 밤이
끝이 없는 새까만 슬픔을 떠도는 이방인
때로는 말없이 눈물이 흐르는 소리에 잠들은
심장이 눈을 뜨고 심장 박동 소리가
회색 빛 도시를 잠 깨우고
난 외우고 외워도 들리지 않는 주문을 외워
fall in Luv in Luv in Luv
다 거짓말이야, 다그친 다음에도,
더 거친 말들을 내게로 또 다시 돌아와 달라고
너에게 화를 내고 싶었어.
말이 없는 벙어리, 피해망상 고집 덩어리,
이런 나라도 너만은 영원히 사랑할 거라고 약속할게
하나, 둘, 셋, 그리고 넷
가슴 속으로 숫자를 세고 천천히 소원을 읊조려
살며시 눈을 떠 눈앞에 꿈에도 그리던 그녀가
다시 나타날 거야. 그리곤 꿈에서 깨.

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거짓말 하지마 지어내지마 뭐라고 말해도 들리지 않아
끝내고 싶다고 끝 날 사랑 아냐 너도 잘 알잖아 사랑해

rap> 두 번 다시는 안될 거라고 다짐했었지.
눈을 가리고 거리를 걷는 상상을 했었지.
내 옆엔 아무도 없어 내 곁엔 어둠 뿐이었어
외로운 날들, 고통의 시간이 내 목을 옭아매었지
내게로 되돌아 올 거라는 막연한 기대감 하나로
기나긴 슬픔의 시간을 견뎌왔던 나의 또 다른 그림자를 쫒아
의미 없는 시간을 거슬러 걸어가
되돌아오지 않는다 해도 끝없이 걸어가
하나, 둘, 셋, 그리고 넷
가슴 속으로 숫자를 세고 천천히 소원을 읊조려
살며시 눈을 떠 차갑게 춤을 춰
눈앞에 꿈에도 그리던 그녀가 나타날 거야.

Please don't make me cry, Don't wanna say good-bye
왜 내게 이러는데 * 반복

Rap>돌아와 달라는 말로는 꽤나 부족한걸 알아
떠나란 한마디 조차 내게는 짐이 될 것 같아
곁에 너 없는 외로운 이 밤이
끝이 없는 새까만 슬픔을 떠도는 이방인

I wanna breathe again. I wanna Love again.

Rap>
난 외우고 외워도 들리지 않는 주문을 외워
fall in Luv in Luv in Luv

떠나는 너의 발소리 떨리는 나의 숨소리
그것보다 커지는 건 슬픈 내 눈물 소리

Rap> 다 거짓말이야, 다그친 다음에도,
더 거친 말들을 내게로 또 다시 돌아와 달라고
너에게 화를 내고 싶었어.
말이 없는 벙어리, 피해망상 고집 덩어리,
이런 나라도 너만은 영원히 사랑할 거라고 약속하겠어

Please don't make me cry.
Don't wanna say good-bye..
왜 내게 이러는데 * 반복

기다려 널 기다려 죽어도 널 못 잊어
눈뜨는 그 순간 떠오르는 사람 그래 나 언제나 너니까

rap> 하나, 둘, 셋, 그리고 넷
가슴 속으로 숫자를 세고 천천히 소원을 읊조려
하나, 둘, 셋그리고 넷 가슴속으로 숫자를 세고
천천히 그녀를 떠올려
하나, 둘, 셋, 그리고 넷
가슴 속으로 숫자를 세고 천천히 그녀를 떠올려

Romanized

I know telling you to come back is insufficient
I think it will be a burden even to mention the word "leave"
This lonely night without you
is endlessly dark and is filled with sadness
Heart will wake up and the entire city
will awake from the sound of my heart thumping
I memorize, and memorize these magical spells
Fall in luv in luv in luv
Everything's a lie, and after it stops
Harsher words begs me to come back
And I was furious with you
A wordless mute and a lump of stubborness
Even the likes of me will promise you an everlasting love
One, two, three and four
Counting down the numbers and reciting my wishes
In my dreams she always appeared before my eyes
And she'll reappear, then I will wake up


Don't lie nor make things up; I can't hear your words
It won't end just because you wished for it and you're the one I love
I vowed that it will never happen twice
I always envisioned myself walking there with my eyes blindfolded
There was no one beside me, all I had was darkness
The lonely days, the painful times, they wrung my neck
With only a dim anticipation, that you would come back to me
Now, I who has walked the road of sadness, is chasing after a different shadow
Only to chase
Then I walk away vowing I won't come back
One, two, three and four
Counting down the numbers and reciting my wishes
In my dreams she always appeared before my eyes
And my eyes opens then I dance coldly
Because she will appear before my eyes
Please don't make me cry.Don't wanna say good-bye
Why are you doing this to me?
I think telling you to come back will be insufficient
I think it will be a burden for me to mention the word "leave"
This lonely night without you
is endlessly dark and is filled with sadness
I wanna breath again. I wanna Love again.

I memorize and memorize these useless magical spells
fall in Lu in Luv in Luv
My breath only getting heavier as I hear your departing footsteps
And my tears are only getting bigger

Everything's a lie, and after it stops
Harsher words begs me to come back
And I was furious with you
A wordless mute and a lump of stubborness
Even the likes of me will promise you an everlasting love
Please don't make me cry
Don't wanna say good-bye
Why are you doing this to me
I'm waiting and waiting and can't erase you outta my mind
Yes, you are the one who I always think about
One, two, three, and four
Counting down the numbers and reciting my wishes
And slowly thinking about her
One, two, three, and four
Counting down the numbers and slowly thinking about her

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wow so such a long post without me typing a single word xD
been on an emotinoal roller coaster ride and i just got off vomitting and choking like a pathetic noob. I realised what a fool i had been and i am constantly overestimating myself.

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Ahh after slacking off for like, 15 days now, I've decided to set some goals for myself for this vacation.

1. Hit the gym. I so need to build up my physique.
2. Eat healthier and sleep earlier (11.30pm latest)
3. Wake up earlier (8.30 to 9am)
4. Play more basketball (call me guys)
5. Go out with people more. Being stuck at home doesnt do anyone any good.
6. LEARN TO COOK. Damn impt.

haha this shld keep me occupied for more than half a day everyday.

7. Piano. Master some pieces so i wont be stuck wif the comp all day.
8. Maybe revise some homework -.- im that bored.
9. Get a job?

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Today had basketball session wif the guys. pretty nice and i can feel every muscle in my body aching like crap right now. And now i am having phobia of Paranormal activities from what mf said. uh geraldine. have fun man. :P

then came back home after lunching with the guys. was like fking dead cos i stayed up till 5.30am talking to a certain someone who watched paranormal activities and couldnt sleep about some random issue. i remember something about fishes. lol.

24 Nov: Had brunch wif amanda and chongwei at parkway yoshi. met up at borders reading up on korea cos it rocks and im dying to go there again. i remember i had so much meat i had indigestion -.- but its so damn worth it. and skiing gave me muscle cramps ...but it was a nice experience anyway. Geraldine was supposed to come but had dance comm meeting, and the funniest part was she walked past yoshi and we're like. eh isnt that geraldine?

went over to nallur road to find sheriel and to play pool at chongwei's ah ma house. yeh.

23 nov: went out to orchard with russell jon sheriel geraldine darrell and myself. ok its like frigging 2.30am thats why im typing whatever comes to mind. then went around uniqlo, went to ramen shop thing for ramen stuff. then had this. mochi thing. then kept walking around. and stuff...yea

yeh.

ok im bored

I'm pretty sure my reader population has diminished till a pathetic few after being MIA for so long. i decided to wake up early due to the fact that my phone wont shut up after i set the alarm for 9.30. -.- cant rmb why i even want to wake up so early in the first place. This is the first real post after a week or so.

Week recap:

Prom night.
Sheriel's belated birthday celebration
Slack. a lot. (kmf shld know very well)

















mmm i appear in a lot of pictures. seems kinda ego -.- but paiseh lah ppl help me take picture, majority of pics that i took all have me so...not trying to zi lian here.

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Sheriel's Post O level Belated Birthday celebration










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yea those are the pictures of the 2 major events that happened this week. If i took a picture of myself AFTER these things u can just imagine a no life gamer sitting in front of his come 24/7. yea that'd be me

will post again when something interesting happens again

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oh tonite have dinner wif jon and sheriel at ion. looking foward it it. cos so need to get out of the house.

and have a safe flight marc.

SHINee [MV] Noona Is So Pretty REPLAY

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Ahhh fresh air.

went out with mom today to orchard to get my prom stuff. super expensive can. within the 4 hrs we spent there, i spent a grand total of $737. The whole prom will cost me around...630.

so so looking forward to prom :D

Been very busy recently

Daily Routine:

Wake up @ 12 noon+
Wash up and eat lunch
Wait for someone to tell me to go out/find ppl to go out (normally to see prom clothes or go town)
Reach at 2+ at meeting place
Walk, talk, shop, stuff till nite time
Reach home 10-11+
Play comp till 3am ++
Sleep
Repeats

wow...kinda busy.

Anyway seriously need to get my prom clothes like by this weekend or i wont have time to get it. Planning to get stuff from river island but my mom is complaining that it is too ex. soz...maybe getting from somewhere that is cheaper bah. see how.

been playing maple private server, combat arms and now downloading Warriors of the 3 Kingdoms (W3k). The maple server is quite OK cos it doesnt let you level as fast as other servers so it makes it a bit more interesting. Combat arms is as usual. I stil suck at sniping so have to work on that. I seriously dunno what to do during this holidays, but i know if i dont make the most out of it i'll be like omgggggg i want my holidays back when sch reopens, be it poly or jc.

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so vexed now cos a lot of things that i NEED to know but dunno how to find out. bleh. hopefully it just comes to me on its own so i dun have to use my brain cells trying to hook info out of people. :P

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mmm i probably shld sleep earlier -.-

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took a lot of pics but the stupid import system is preventing me from loading it into the comp. so pics will come later.

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and i just got bored of blogging. tata.

This post is all pics. Too late to type anything for them. Will add things on tmr. For now, enjoy :)






































4/4
2009
One of a kind.
Our levels are all over 9000
ching chiat!











Lunch with Amelia, Benji and Mf.

10. Perlicia - Hardcore Bishop and underground mugger. Jiayou! :)
11. Yiin Shin - Boys over Flower die hard fan xD One of my closest friends and always a positive influence, and incredibly high tolerance to lameness
12. Kai Ting - a valuable asset to the class with her blurness and being able to laugh things off, the class's snail :)
13. Ali - Ultimate joker who can keep a straight face even when everyone else is laughing. Not a mugger but he is super smart which compensate for everything else.
14. Rayner - A very potent suan-er. Class manager of 2008 and 2009 and i have no doubt he'll be rep for anything that he does in the future.
15. Chang Jie - Pedobear who can fire his lazer at a rate that is over 9000 per sec! Please dont say "what" near him. i beg u T_T
16. Ming Fong - Yoobin is his love. Abracadabra is his dance. Randomly start singing in class is our specialty. Best. Friend. Anyone. Can. Find. Brothers for life man.
17. Ren Hao - So Hee is his love. He cant do the moonwalk to save his life. Loyal friend thru and thru. Another brother of mine
18. Raymond - The most "peaceful" hotel manager-to-be you can find anywhere. Class joker and netball style basketballer
20. Benedict - The joker who's in love with 3. Michael Jordan pants split is his ultimate. Drinks koper and always there to go for 2nd servings during recess :)
21. Jun Jie - MSN sure say..."hey tmr sch need do..." Always get suan by me, only to use that suan back on myself. Mugger to the max
22. Khairul - Hardworking boy!
23. Guo Wei - Classmates for five years in a row. Since sec 1 to sec 4, i've grown to see you as a friend.
24. Benjamin - Always kena disturbed by me, but a very good friend who is there when a friend is most needed
25. Wesley - Fellow Germanian. He is 16 with a body like an old man, huh?
26. Wyn - Wynnie wynnie. #8 is his love. The basketball/foosball addict joker and a serious thinker when the situation calls for it.
27. Jia Jie - sitting behind me, he always have something to say that makes me laugh :)
28. Zayn - The complacent mugger who always is the #1 in class position. see ppl no up sia. look down on ppl. :)

All the times that we spend studying (not a lot actually...), all the afternoons we spent at the basketball court... all the times that i fell asleep in class and get scolded by teachers...and all the fun times that we all shared. I'll always remember everyone of you (and dont u dare forget me!), the 27 brothers and sisters that shared 2 years (some even 4) together in this sch.

School uniform - $7
School socks - $3
Textbooks - $100+
Being posted to 3/4 (2008), 4/4 (2009) - Priceless

There're somethings money cant buy.
You.

The 2 years spent together in this class had been the best years of my life as a student (and im serious). The first day of school was of fond memories. Wesley walked into the class late, looking wildly for the teacher. When he saw Miss Soh looking at him, first reaction was..."Shit". Best First day anyone can hope for.

Time flies, and soon it was our graduation. Everyone was smiling and laughing with one and other, but i know everyone was hoping that the bell will never sound, and we can stay together as a class for as long as we can. When Miss Farhanah tried to cut the golden string that linked us together, everyone held on to it as closely as possible so that she cant cut it. And when she did cut it, we tired it back together to be a whole again. FourFour. Class spirit. That day was also the last day that i get to do random stuff with mingfong that only a few will understand. I will always remember the times that either of us can suddenly start singing a song, and the other will immediately start singing with him. I'll miss these days.

Remembering hurts, because i know that we have to part sooner or later...but i'll always treasure these fond memories.

Fourfour ohhnine.

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