Snow Patrol - Chasing Cars lyrics

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hi chublets. recently i feel super tired from studying and from things happening
the funny thing is that sometimes the things dont happen to me, but it happens to people around me (mostly friends) and i am typing htis without looking at the screen. why am i even doing that? lol i dont know. sometimes i just feel like i shld let everything go and dont care abt anything but myself but that way of living is too...solitudary (sp?) songs really make sense when i look at the lyrics (most of the time i just listen to the music) songs are like...a relfection of the soul and anything that is written in a song may just come true. so songs are...awesome.

people falling into/falling out of love. this is a cycle. if you happen to see my blog post, my dear friend, dont take anything too hard or anything. let it go as it will, and u'll find that life is much broader than this, and he WILL regret. when that happens u will just walk away suavely, head held high. i know it wont be easy. give it time[i dont think u'll even read this post but this is how i feel :)]

started watching death note again recently. i love the first opening song THE WORLD by NIGHTMARE. especially the part when there's this glass shattering sound. very realistic very dynamic. me likey. i started listening to my old songs rather than downloading new ones now. i think it makes me realise that new things arent definitely better, and old things definitely hold sentimental values, or in this case, special memories. some songs actually remind me of t he games i played while listening to it. like...runescape (decades again -.-), battleon (why did i even play that game?!) and maplestory, gunbound, various others. talking about games makes me remember the memories that i shared with my friends from online, especially those from maplestory. Providence guild people how are u guys? i kinda lost contact with everyone after i left the game (lv 98 chief bandit, i was hardcore). i spent tons of money on the game (i wont say how muhc, but its super a lot. it could have bought me TONS of clothes which i want now)

remembering back my life when i was a kid, a teen, and now im nearing adulthood (i count by 18, but even if its 21, i'll only be 4 more years away) i realise i've done numerous stupid mistakes and things that made my family worry and heartache. my mother is really a good mother, and i'll be forever grateful for the things she's done for me. i've been kinda neglecting her a bit and sometimes i get impatient with her. my sister is....domineering but i know she meant well by telling me off and reminding me to study and stop using so muchh facebook. my dad is very accomodating and a good father who love me and my sister a lot. i just wish he's a bit stricter with me so i wont feel so guilty when i dont do well for exams. he had always told me the same line. "Do the best you can, dont worry. no matter what i'll always support u. no matter what you do" thanks dad. i really love my family but i dun tell them often enough.

lol this is sounding more and more like a suicide note. well...it is not -.-

this post is really wordy haha. i like the feeling of my fingers moving across the keyboard. i dont want it to stop so i m going to continue typing until i get tired :)

my dearest 4/4

everyone of you are awesome. im glad that i met you guys on my 2nd sec 3 year. things 'd been a lot different if i were to be in some other classes. all the random and stupid moments we all had. all the united and supportive things we did. all the bottles we lined up at the back. i'll never forget it. you're all one of a kind xD and the best thing is, all of you didnt see us retainees as...retainees. u accepted us as who we are rather than what we had been. so here is to all of you who made my life brighter once again.

and to tell the truth, being in sec 3/4 and 4/4 had been the best 2 years (in sch) of my life.

Thank you: names are in random order
Ming Fong
Ren Hao
Benedict
Wyn
Yiin Shin
Gale
Vera
Raymond
Lydia
Amelia
Benji
Wesley
Kaiting
Chang Jie
Jia jie
Jun Jie

and to my tuition friends. you all are the best friends i've ever met. we literally are siblings. more or less.

Sheriel
Russell
Jon
Geraldine
Chongwei
Marc
Amanda

and

Sarah darling
Diwen
Angela

and a lot more others that i may have missed out.

wow this is a really long and boring post. xDD
bear with me, or click on the little red X at the top of the window.
cos i still feeling like typing

lets see. i did Kinematics Dynamics and Work/Power today. pretty good for a physics idiot like me.

Haha sarah got the same phone as me :D yay. w995 ftw. w995 battery life ftl -.- it sucks battery faster than changjie with a bottle of drink after basketball.

i feel like an idiot for feeling things the way i shouldnt. no point torturing myself by doing this, but it just cant be helped. and i really really want to hate you.

my life should be put on FML.